You paint me in an unfamiliar light
I grow, change, then digress
Just like the rest
Moments of genius
Come and go
Harnessing the power
Usually drives me insane.
Long, as I've known you,
Preconceived ideas
Of who I am,
What I'm about
And what I'm thinking
Far from a static person.
Demons of the past
Finally worked
Their ways out of me...
No more tripping
The days and nights away.
Used to be lost,
Until I realized
I was forever searching
For what was always within.
Back to the basics,
Reading, writing, creating, exploring
(Real and not the illusions)
Finally finding peace.
Mom told me
What was happening?
Cold death in the neck
It crushed me.
Middle of times
Easier to run away
From the world
I almost left it all.
Life changed nightmares
To sweet dreams
Needing to grow
Pressure was my reluctance
To change.
You caught me last time
Hours of darkness
(Dark night of the soul).
I can only imagine
What I looked like to you,
So far away
From this place...so far
From happiness.
Bouncing from important
Person to person; calls
Searching for the parts of me
Loved and still wanted
Like putting together
A jigsaw puzzle.
Haven't learned much
Other than I've learned
To say when I am wrong,
And fight when I am strong.
Actually knowing very little.
Back to where I am,
A student of life.
Things were much more
Interesting and exciting
Learning from everything...
Still like a child.
Steps closer to being
Truly happy
At any rate.
-D
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